There is something wrong with me.  I feel like I am dying, or that I am already dead and just waiting for my body to hit the floor.  I feel like nothing I do matters and time has become a torture.  For so long I have lost my ability to hold on to memories, I can't remember anything anymore.  Names, dates, places, nothing - it is like being an empty shell all the time.  Even yesterday is lost to me.  I am almost in the moment, my current state is all I know and at the moment it sucks.  On top of that, I am a sociopath.  I care not for the human race.  It doesn't mean I want to see anyone harmed, but I could care less that the world destroys itself for I have lost my connection to it and its peoples.  It has been a long time since I have kissed, for I fear they would sense my truth...I don't care.  I pretend to be whole.  I pretend to me a member of society.  I pretend to be like everyone else.  But I don't want to be you.  I feel that the human race is on a path which a decent being would never follow, things like rape, slavery, and prejudice is your wheelhouse and if I became you you would turn me into a monster.  So i die alone.  I wished I was born to a different universe, one in which humans behaved more like angels instead of demons so this earth would be a paradise instead of a hell burning souls.  I wish we shared, volunteered, cooperated and trusted one another instead of trade, extorted, competed, and lied.  It does not take a rocket scientist to understand why world peace does not exist, there is not a single peaceful being on the planet to make it possible.  We are at war, the entire human race.  These imaginary lines divide us.  History alienates us.  Calenders imprison us.  Tradition indoctrinates us.  Clocks put us on repeat and I keep expecting change.  This hell, this insanity, is our making and I wish no part of it.  My condition allows me to see truths and I wished I can unsee them for the demons I share this earth with do not have my allegiance or sympathies.  You are all evil and I can not wait for my body to catch up with the present.  Please....hit the floor already and let it be over. I can't bear to watch the world revolve anymore.