There is something wrong with me.  I feel like I am dying, or that I am already dead and just waiting for my body to hit the floor.  I feel like nothing I do matters and time has become a torture.  For so long I have lost my ability to hold on to memories, I can't remember anything anymore.  Names, dates, places, nothing - it is like being an empty shell all the time.  Even yesterday is lost to me.  I am almost in the moment, my current state is all I know and at the moment it sucks.  On top of that, I am a sociopath.  I care not for the human race.  It doesn't mean I want to see anyone harmed, but I could care less that the world destroys itself for I have lost my connection to it and its peoples.  It has been a long time since I have kissed, for I fear they would sense my truth...I don't care.  I pretend to be whole.  I pretend to me a member of society.  I pretend to be like everyone else.  But I don't want to be you.  I feel that the human race is on a path which a decent being would never follow, things like rape, slavery, and prejudice is your wheelhouse and if I became you you would turn me into a monster.  So i die alone.  I wished I was born to a different universe, one in which humans behaved more like angels instead of demons so this earth would be a paradise instead of a hell burning souls.  I wish we shared, volunteered, cooperated and trusted one another instead of trade, extorted, competed, and lied.  It does not take a rocket scientist to understand why world peace does not exist, there is not a single peaceful being on the planet to make it possible.  We are at war, the entire human race.  These imaginary lines divide us.  History alienates us.  Calenders imprison us.  Tradition indoctrinates us.  Clocks put us on repeat and I keep expecting change.  This hell, this insanity, is our making and I wish no part of it.  My condition allows me to see truths and I wished I can unsee them for the demons I share this earth with do not have my allegiance or sympathies.  You are all evil and I can not wait for my body to catch up with the present.  Please....hit the floor already and let it be over. I can't bear to watch the world revolve anymore.

Comparing capitalism to socialism is like comparing evil to good, hell to heaven,  indentured servitude to freedom.  A capitalist will never understand socialism because history has taught them to hate their neighbor, to not trust them, to erect borders and locks and secrecy to ensure it's continuation.  The perpetuation is taught and blind faith has stolen alliegences to land instead of a world of people.  Their way of life is based on extortion instead of sharing, manipulation instead of volunteering, and war instead of peace. Survival of the fittest, not the survival to all and crowned as kings to aspire to and be bowed to, equality is not something they ever want. They are still uncivilized, animals no different than the beasts of earth. They have left the world impoverished and expect the majority mass to do its bidding, it is the evil which has destroyed the possibility of a united species of mothers fathers daugthers and sons to truly care for one another.  A true socialistic society has never existed on earth because it requires peaceful beings and there are no peaceful beings on earth or world peace would already exist. Do i believe socialism will ever exist, no.  I beileve we are fated for extinction and destiny will show it was done by our own hands.

We've wasted it.  Our time with this earth.  You have created a false calender which is dictating your fate while repeating history you fail to see what this present moment offers.  Take your pulse and move at your own decay rate.  See that your scales are wrong and the frozen sky a picture from movement.  This earth is changing at a phenomenal rate and this brief moment is temporary.  If future generations are to exist the people of this planet must be present to create a future not lost in cycles.  Step away from the earth and see the eternity and endless opportunity.

I would work for free under a few conditions.  One, it has to be something i like to do, something im good at and believe i could do with confidence.  Two, i want it to always be my best works so long as i can lean on a society whom feels the same, valuing contributions no matter how large or small the same.  We choose to care. i need to be able to lean on society for all things, knowing you truly have my back; we are all family after all. Three, there is no need to compete, by naturally exercising our gifts and volunteer all is cared for.  We are the children of earth and only together can we stand the test of the universe and achieve the miracles on this temporary haven.

Empires never last.  But until ... they will just keep forming.

The universe is filled with randomness.  Why have you self imprisoned yourself to a foreign clock denying your own free flow through spacetime? Why align yourself to land? You are a human whom should freely roam her home, earth.  Stop the insanity and stop repeating the past literally every day.  Be present and forge a better future for humanity.  Evolve the species and mature to the next incremental level.  We are new and need much changing.  Still beast killing in competition extorting and manipulative for best survival letting our children duke it out in a grinder we maintain through calender, history and clock, forever repeating grampa's mis takes.  Free yourself and see we are together capable of loving our great family and ending the competition so that we could put our heads together to build a society in which everyone is born in the care of our billions.  World peace only requires one thing, peaceful beings.  Think you can mature to become one of them?

I do not wish to live amonst a society of laws.  Its citizens are being controlled through fears of consequences and would violate those laws with impunity.  I do not wish to be around such creatures.  A true civil society would not violate their own moral code nor would it be looking for vengence.