I killed myself. Each time I took a drag on a pleasure stick, each time I had random sex with a stranger, each time I took a drink. Each time I turned on a microwave, held a cellphone to my head, sat a laptop on my knees, the radiation is consuming me. Pills I swallow recommended to me by healers remedy by side effects. I even think about each and every time I elevated my heart rate, reducing the number of beats I have left dramatically. My time is shorter than ever and I did it all to myself. How stupid can one be, could my children be even stupider than me?