How can I have peace in my heart when I know I am not peaceful?  To know that I horde, extort, prostitute myself instead of give and share.  I am part of this cause.  I take no responsibility.  I follow a majority, and our result is hell on earth; instead of heaven our cooperation can bring, I enforce a survival of only the fittest, the most cunning, the most cruelest, the most ungenerous.  I make sure equality doesn't exist.  This calendar which I blindly repeat, dictates my routine I have no choice but to gravitate.  I am evil and stupid and trapped.  If somehow I would come to be surrounded by the peaceful, a world of peace would exist.  If somehow I would come to be surround by the peaceful whom gave and shared, all would be well equally for all. If somehow I would come to be surround by the peaceful, heaven would just be normality which all naturally followed.  Unfortunately that kin have no relation to the kin which share this planet.  Our souls have long been lost.  I am lost.