Light takes time to reach me.
So what i see is always the past.
Nothing i see is now.

I am not meant to live in this society, something is fundamentally wrong and there is no sensible way to adapt or want to adapt to it.  I am not an alpha, my mind is not set to the concept survival of the fittest.  Those quick to react or resort to violence mark themselves quite plainly.  Me, I believe cooperation yields higher then competition or coercion.   I believe sharing leads to caring.  I believe volunteering ones best is better.  I believe through peaceful actions do we unite a species.  But this planet is not at peace, it is at war and the human race hates one another drawing imaginary lines and claiming earth.  I would have to split my personality if I wanted to fit in; I would have to give myself a disorder.  This mask I call myself would have to learn to not share, to gather in my advantage and convince others to believe me superior over others. I would have to become alpha willing to tear throats of my new found enemies, other humans.  I would have to devalue the priceless soul and make market of my peoples.  I would have to hate, to prevent the peace and perpetuate the war.  While I am at it I may as well subscribe to one of the forty thousand religions also at war with each other, I am sure that will make myself appear more normal.  I must adapt; for in the minority of love, hate quickly conquers.  I must become evil to be more like every one else, then I can begin my competition for survival.  Because, surely rational beings would have already fathom a concept for survival for all. Only if we actually cared for one another, but that requires love and it's already established to the minority and has been conquered.  And so has my soul.  Maybe just laying down would be better.  After all according to you I'm not fit to survive, why should I want to be surrounded by such darkness?  I guess if I was truly evil the answer would be obvious.

I glance over at my tablet, face down the camera stares back at me so I begin to speak to it ...

I know you are watching, how could someone not be watching? It's technology, and I've allowed you a gateway to a one way show.  I do not hate, I'm okay with it since the usefulness of the tool.  I only hope you do not intend to step on ants.  Trust, it's our biggest weakness, we have none.  We lock our cars, chain our bikes and bar the doors.  It does not take a Nobel scientist to conclude why world peace doesn't exist, we are simply not peaceful people - surely not enough to make a world of it.  So while you peep realize with all you know come great responsibility and a lasting impact you can have on a world.

I would formally like to extend my trust to you, a child of earth, natural born citizen of this planet to another, free of affiliation to any region or belief, just simple soul to simple soul.  We are all mothers, fathers, daughters, and sons.  This earth we share is home, through cooperation and not competition do we achieve, for the miracles we create are the luxuries we elevate together as equals.  Our caring for one another is what ensures survival for all.  It is from trust that love foster unity, this unity is the peace a world of its children could be.

Time and space are astronomically large.  While human life is astronomically short.  For such a mass to be explored it would take a team of infinity endless time to reach each and every possible planet capable of supporting some form of life.  How would it be achieved?  Then I realized, it already is.  Our current forms are performing that very function.  My eyes have witness the expanse of the known universe from this part of the galaxy and she is infinitely filled.  Report back I hope to do and pray I have another opportunity to be fielded again.  But I hope to be reborn to another species on another body, although this earth is beautiful no species is more lecherous than the human race.  With no sense of harmony, they fail to recognize their place and the value kinship to all can improve the livelihood a species.  This war against one another through competition removes the soul, fosters the hate upon the natural born children, citizens of earth, preventing the friendships which together is the peace of a world.  Our time in this place is short, it is the decisions of those present in the now which forms the future and the possibilities tomorrows children may or may not have.  This project of exploration will end for this species just like every other, the questions are when and are the current a detriment to its longevity?  Regardless, life is over in the blink of the eye.  May I come back to something like an ant colony; though they work hard together, they get shit done for the betterment of the whole society.  Maybe there i will find some peace.