My heart hurts. I cry constantly.  My knees can't support me.  I simply lay, just waiting.  The company i find deplorable.  They compete, lie, cheat and steal then flaunt their power and back slaps for the luxuries they bask in to the struggling mothers fathers daughters and sons, my family, the majority in this genocidal grinder we call life.  I ache for the dead and the current countless suffering.  Imposed by laws and borders, humanity has enslaved itself in history and a repeating calendar to ensure no change possible.  It seems as if the world has been brain washed by infinite ideals all clashing against themselves with absolutely no care for human life, only selfish success by our most savage of barbaric souls.  This nonsense stops humanity from evolving into a worthy species deserving of an opportunity at survival and spread throughout this impossibly massive universe.  Our challenges are just beginning and i dont believe we are up for the job.  We have failed to stop competing, judging worths, making impossible for us to be equals.  We have yet to achieve through voluntary wills in this place and time.  We have yet to mature, civilize and see the billions in our care.  We must ensure every single life is offered our best.   We must greet humanity with the miracles of the human race.  We must become peaceful so that a world of us can make world peace.  I cry because how can we not be peaceful, this simple and natural act.  I cry because i am not alone but have not a clue to rouse spirit in others.  I refuse to market myself, prostitute my abilities so that i can extort from you all i can for personal gain.  That is not me, i can not be so cruel, this norm is destroying souls and it only saddens me more.   We have created hell when a paradise could be.  We have lost and i cry and i cry and i cry.