Where's my suicide pill?

I would like to find a peaceful way to die. The way I see it, everyone dies. And honestly, right now, what does it matter to you? Life means nothing to you, especially the Lives you don't know. Out of sight, out of mind. Including the countless millions of children whom you watch die each year the worse ways possible. They mean nothing to you. So why would I? Why must I be tortured to the bitter end? I'm not saying I want to die, no, not at all. I love Life. But when my experiences and time are in mortal decline I would like to have my own way out. If I could help it, definitely a death that involves the least amount of pain. I don't see anything wrong with choosing one's own exit. It is our Life and an end is inevitable. A peaceful death just sounds right. And going to a doctor to prolong Life doesn't seem to make sense. They kill you too, just in different ways. And leave you in debt. What kind of help is that? It doesn't make sense. Why the extortion? We each are gifted with natural abilities. Curious beings tax their abilities to voluntarily test their limits. Why must we use these abilities against each other in judgments and worth’s to compete in prostitution and marketing for survival? It’s mean. It’s senseless and barbaric. It devalues Life. It shows no Love or sense for the children of the Human race. Fighting and Weapons do not bring peace. Good minds and good hearts do. We need better parents teaching better lessons. Lessons including sharing and cooperation. I just hope you lived your Life to help create the best Earth possible for your children. Hopefully your parents provided you guidance, good council, and matured a nurtured being in Love and wisdom. Every moment of Life is precious and none of us should take it for granted. None of us should not see reason to put forth our energies to ensure survival for the entire species. We must mature to evolve the Human race and allow ourselves the freedom to push Life for growth. We must change our ways so that we can Live free. To do so we must stop competing for survival. It is stunting our growth. We must stop allowing the minority fittest to rape the majority weakest. We must volunteer together as equals and do our bests to provide luxury for all. No currency, No borders, No brands. That is sense. Where is yours? Are you not a free being, a natural born citizen of Earth in the good company of loving mothers, fathers, sons and daughters willing to do good? How is it that world peace not already exist? What's wrong with us? What are the parents teaching that corrupts our minds towards evil? Is it the archaic calendar we are born into that has everyone locked into the same networked thoughts like The Matrix? A pre-planned program being repeated each year, each month, each week, each day, each minute on a schedule to do? Slaves is what people are. Insane drones in fact. Start a new calendar if you have to to snap out of it. See NOW and the people you share this Earth with. We need our help. History has no claim on Earth. History does not exist NOW, it only can influence us if we let it. The truth is it is we who only have NOW and this Earth. It is ours to do as we please and it is our current actions that dictate the state of this planet and her peoples. Collectively we can use our technology and instant global communication to bring Peace, Love, Sanity and Heaven to Earth over night. World Peace by will power. Are you capable of willing good? Because it would be obvious is we did. So alone I remain, the sole sane person on Earth and tortured by my kin. The insantity of the current parents and children is too cruel and unbearable for my good soul. I will only endure for so long, so where's my pill?