I've come to the conclusion that I'm already dead and maintaining my body by artificial means. My medicine for the depression cigarettes to kill time coffee for the caffeine and energy from the sugar. The days are just repeats of yesterday with absolutely no desires to change or to advance in any way. I find company an intrusion and prefer to remain by myself. The walls are undecorated and dust coats everything. But there my body remains propped up in bed still breathing. Fortunately I've done everything I've cared to do in this life now I wait. I think I can feel it creeping up on me. This is exciting I can't wait to see what I will become next if that is so the will of the universe.  I never minded the idea of dying but pain well that sucks.  In a way we've made mockery of existence and if i could do it again it would be with more civilized people.  The beliefs in Humanity's history repeated and passed through generations by calendar prevent the beings currently existing to see one another.  To recognize what we are and what truly needs to be achieved.  This creature we call human is doomed for extinction and its barbarcy will make it sooner than later.  This war against the human race which has divided us all is why world peace does not exist.  There is not a single peaceful being on the planet.  So if i have another life amongst people i hope they are united kind caring beings of mothers fathers sisters brothers family caring for one another.  If 10 exist homes for 10 are built.  Period.  I imagine since we are all family we naturally provide for each other.  Every single being offered the best of our capability. It is what kind people do.  And one of the things they do is teach their young how to give.  To give their best and achieve for us all.  We need no leaders we are intelligent.   We are free.  We are equal.  We choose for ourselves how and how often we contribute.  But with billions giving all they have we provide for every single being.  The natural born citizens of planet x demonstrating how world peace is achieved naturally by peaceful people.  Thats who i hope im next amongst.  Because all though ive had fun here these humans are horrid and i kinda dont care to stay.